i like to imagine that in heaven or wherever people go after they die, they can see when their loved ones will also be coming and have a countdown for when they are finally reunited

i'm imagining that there's a countdown for tessie, and everyday tony is just more excited to finally see him again. and slowly, one by one, each one of our family members will be able to join him. and one day, i'll be up there too; i'm not sure how long my countdown is, but there is something comforting about dying and i'm not afraid of it

who is reading my posts!!

hello whoever you are! welcome to my blog of really depressed but {sometimes} funny thoughts. i wonder if i know who you are, or if you're just some random person out in the world. you're probably someone i know who i never talk to anymore. OR you're someone i talk to on a daily basis, you sly dog

do you ever have a moment in your life when you stop and think about how well/okay everything is going, and think, man when is my next tragic moment? When is something bad going to happen??? there's no way the world is supposed to go this smoothly right?? i've been having that thought lately.

it's been a while

currently on the hunt for more good songs but i've been lacking recently sigh. one good one is hope by tim legend tho; naomi wild's voice is so sultry

currently sitting in the atrium dreading studying for microtheory blegh. I did finish homework early though, so I should really spend this extra time studying for my exams next week...esp also since I'm going out for dinner later.

idk how i feel rn. just very mundane