Friday, February 21, 2014 4 Comments A+ a-

So I like this guy.
It's so goddamn confusing I don't even know how to explain it
I seriously haven't liked a guy like this in god knows how long.
I mean, I've liked other guys, but mostly for their looks (as superficial as that sounds), because I just never got the chance to know them on a more personal level.

But him...
I like the way he talks. I like the way he thinks. I like how he's so happy.
I like him.

Oh god I sound so cheesy. I really don't know. Just...thinking about him makes me happy y'know? The highlight of my day is whenever I get to see him at school, and say hi. The best part of my day is coming home and chatting with him online.

It's like this bubbly feeling inside of me 24/7. It's like I've drank too much apple cider and laughed too long with my friends.

Goddamn I want to say more but I'm scared someone I know is reading this. I know Sandra knows about this blog because she saw it in my sites when she came over, but she said she wouldn't read it. And god knows who else knows.


And it's so weird because years ago he liked ME and I was the one who didn't reciprocate the same feelings.

What if this time it's the other way around??

AH FUCK what is wrong with me

And also there's this other girl who he's like best friends with.

You know what fuck this I don't want to think about him anymore


And the thing is, that girl is probably way more suited to him than I am. He's eloquent as fuck and he's intelligent and he can talk about so many things and I don't even understand physics.

Goddamn and that girl is at the same level as him too. She's pretty and SO SMART and she can talk just as well as him. They go on school trips together all the time. They pretty much belong together.

I don't know if I should post this. Should I? What if he finds out??? Then he'll probably never talk to me again other than "Um please get away from me kthxbai"

Okay you know what I change my mind, I don't like him. He's just a good friend who happens to posses like a bunch of qualities that I happen to like.

No big deal.

PS. Please forget everything mentioned above.

I write about stuff no one cares about--aka my life


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February 23, 2014 at 8:12 AM delete

I can't say I know how you feel, but you're funny and sweet and pretty and there's no reason why anyone wouldn't like you. He doesn't know what he's missing out on :)


P.S. Don't worry, now I've forgotten everything mentioned above ;)

February 23, 2014 at 1:07 PM delete

I understand your situation I liked my best friend so much and I had those butterflies in my stomach but I was afraid to tell him what I feel because I didn't want our friendship to end. You know what ? I was so desperate to know if he likes me back so I told him what I feel and now he is my boyfriend!!! <3 girl,you never know he might like you back. You never know what can happen and if he doesn't like you, you will eventually find the right guy :)

- Nicole

February 24, 2014 at 2:23 PM delete

Aww thanks(: I think I will eventually tell him.