Livewire

Feelings in college are sad and confusing and I don't like it

I don't want to sound like a typical angsty teenager but I just want everything to end

sunday shit & updates

let me preface this by saying I fucking love music

like

idk why does music just feel so good? it can instantly change my mood and idk

IDK

that is literally my mood this Sunday afternoon. I don't know anything about anything and I don't even know if I want to know.

why the fuck does everything suck rn

WHY

I'm supposed to be reading my advertising textbook rn but I don't want to and I also have to do chinese hw because i fucking suck at it and i got a 72 on my first hw for some goddamn reason and I still have to confirm my acceptance to chicago CFT and shanghai but I just have no motivation to do anything

and also i hate fuckbois?????

but I still keep them in my life???

but its like

ARE YOU REALLY A FUCKBOI

oh what tf I can't deal with this

im an idiot and mads knows this but she's just too nice to tell me

i don't know

you know what I'm just being a lazy and annoying shit rn so I need to stop and appreciate what I do have

ARGHEgfhfGFHHGHG

TIANA GET YOUR FUCKING SHIT TOGETHER

updates:

First day of pt II of college

1/19/16

can't bother with a better title.

TODAY WAS MY FIRST DAY OF MY LAST SEMESTER AS A FRESHMAN IN COLLEGE

lol k tiana stfu its not even a big deal

but it kinda is right?? like I feel like I've done so much the last semester, and there's only more to experience/learn this spring.

god damn i forgot to take an ootd pic.

Oh well, I wore VS leggings, my black chelsea boots, and this cream f21 sweater with lace on the bottom. I thought it made me look fat but Lila said I looked cute so u know

listening to taylor swift again IM SO HAPPY

I HAVE SO MUCH SHIT TO DO BUT IM STILL SO HAPPY

okay so

today I woke up around 9 am and got ready and kinda messed around I guess

I had yogurt

anyways

My first class was at 11 and it was Chinese 604 and I walked over with Brian

omg my class is so fun. I know a lot of people and theres only like 20 people total in my class so yeah

holy shit I have to brush up on my pin yin though. doing that after this post.

Afterwards, I had a 2 hour break so I stopped by the ABSA table and helped them table for a bit. I actually saw Jang cos he was visiting from harvard so that was pretty cool I guess.

Then I had lunch with jen and I got a spinach BLT wrap which was actually v good

theeen we went to SAC for a bit and then I sold some clothes to a girl and made $13 holla

I had Macro at 2, which was boring but Kaylee and Ryana are in my class so that's good

and then I met up with Jessica afterwards and we walked to Advertising together and met up with brian

omg I'm actually pretty excited for advertising. The professor is this really cool dude who cusses a lot and said "this class is pretty fucking easy" so ya know

afterwards I walked back to Jester and I got a strawberry smoothie and sat outside by myself for a bit because the weather was good and I checked my email and

guys

I got a fucking $4,000 scholarship for my internship abroad in Shanghai.

I honestly

like

I want to relive the feeling of opening that email over and over again.

I called my parents and told them and then I just sat there and kept rereading the email because it seemed too good to be true. It honestly made my day.

like I know anyone can get the internship and scholarship but...I just never thought I'd be able to idk

So....more adventures in Shanghai to come this summer :')

Afterwards, I had a Chinese placement exam so I went and took that and LOL failed the reading section but its okay

I finished around 6 and I was literally the last student to leave the classroom

Zack texted me and said he had something for me so I met up with him and I got the date skate t-shirt!! WHICH IS HELLA CUTE

afterwards I had to go to co-op so we just walked together and I sold my art history textbook for $50!! :)) and then I bought my macro textbook and access code for $140 :((((((

then after that (ok I'm sorry for my basic/bad transitions I just need to hurry and get this all down so I can go do other shit) we walked to tiffs treats and got cookies which was literally like the cherry on top of the cake like r u kidding me tiffs treats after such an awesome day??

then I came back and messed around again and submitted my Chicago CFT application

Now I'm going to:

-study pinyin
-enroll in Aplia for macro
-figure out clothing sales
-start reading for macro?
-GYM????

okay goodbye

i know I'm not going to have as awesome of a day for a while so U KNOW i gotta record it down while its fresh and smile about this later




update: MY SHOWER WAS HOT ALL THE WAY THROUGH TONIGHT TOO!!

Winter Break 2015

HOLLA

hello hello hello

I AM BACK AT SCHOOL YASSSSSS

If you can't tell I'm so so so excited and happy to be back. Not to crap on my family or anything I did over the break, but I just love being here and :')

So let's run through what I did during my first winter break of college!! LES GETTIT LESGO

Sooooo

god what did I even do over break?

listening to taylor swift while writing this post so v happy

December 12th, 2015

The night before, I went to dinner and trail of lights w/ Genny...and some other stuff

So the day after GOTTA REFRESH WITH A SHEET MASK

i deleted the pic cos i looked back and its rlly ugly
 Okay then my parents came and picked me up and we drove back HOME~~









































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TODAY: January 18th, 2016